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(8/22/23 9:11 pm)

Yo. So ive started back at college so things have been very busy. Nothing in my life is any different, however I think I will be delving back into my work with tulpas. I hope all goes well.

(4/14/23 7:11 pm)

Hi. It's been a bit. Life sucks as always, a bunch of junk went down a couple weeks ago and my dad kinda disowned me. There is so much I want to say but cant. I dont know what else I can say other then iM doing horrible lol

(2/26/23 3:02 pm)

Hi. I'm 19! Crazy. Today I feel very drained. Life is so very odd and thats all my brain can seem to get out toay. I have to write an essay for college so- Im gonna do that.

(2/9/23 10:51 pm)

I wish I felt more okay. Some days I get this wave of hate and sadness and I cant do anything to help it. I just want to be happy. On a bright side, I'm gonna try getting license soon and tommorow im going out with friends. I dont know why I feel so strange. Ive been thinking a lot about Contard syndrome and I think this is how I feel, drained of blood and inhuman. I'm gonna brush my teeth and wash my face now.

(2/6/23 1:46 pm)

I wonder why I am so strange. I do not act the way a regular person would. It hurts being this way. My birthday is soon, i'll be 19. I still dont have a job, I can't drive, and I am still too scared to leave my house. At the very least I am in college and have plans. I am thinking about how I should make this website more pretty. I want to show people I am an intresting person but this diary seems too much, hell I can't even program this correctly. I still can't figure out how to add pictures and such. It makes me sad. Im still playing lots of video games, I got the new Yomawari game and I hope its just as scary as the others. Sometimes Ill get very empty and sad and these things that bring me joy just sudenly stop. I want to be normal very badly.

(1/25/23 9:50 pm)

Today in therapy I talked about how I am a horribly scary person. My intrusive thoughts are getting the better of me. I really want to get rid of one of my eyes. It is usless and shows only lies. I do not want it. On a lighter note I suppose, I've been sitting at my desk play Rain World for days. I do my college work online and then play video games, watch South Park and sleep. Rotting away in my bed is the only comfort I have. I hope the year of the rabbit is a good one.

(12/23/22) 9:17 pm)

Ah. It's almost Christmas for me and although I'm excited, I still feel this pit of emptiness. My doctor mentioned I might have Bipolar Depression and I just want to switch meds to see if they help. I feel sad today and I just want to feel happy again. On a side note, Ive been playing slime rancher again! I also really want to set up the music section of this website so I can post some of my favorite songs. I also want to post my art here eventually. I'm so bad at this stuff, I tried last time for so long to figure out just how to change the background and it never worked haha.

(12/13/2022 4:56 pm)

My dad is mean. I feel sad and empty. That's it. It hurts to talk and think.

(12/12/2022 7:27 pm)

My issues with life are growing. I hate the way depression locks you into a head space of being so absorbed in sadness and the anxiety makes you fear all that sadness. I don't know. I wish I got on meds that made me numb and not weird. It was sunny today and it made me angry. I am going to play Okami and go to bed alone and cold.

(12/11/2022 7:44 pm)

Admittedly, I have no idea how I have been able to work on this when I am so ungodly bad at this stuff. I do not think I can say enough how bad I am at this. Ive been on and off coding for over 3 years and this is all I have to show. I am like this with everything, I am bad at everything I do. This is probably the best place to mention the fact that I am unemployed. Most people on here are depressed right? I fit in, haha. Im on meds that make me numb. My aversion to people has been around since I remember and during lockdown it had grown worse. I never leave my house. I dont need to and I dont really care, it just makes me feel sick being inside so much. I am rotting. Anyways... I am going to go rot in bed. Tommorow is therapy. I might keep trying to figure out more coding stuff if I can. Goodnight.


	Home About Links Diary Home I feel like I have lived forever. About Me Hello! My name is Stomachy or you can also call me Mae. Im 18. I am a neet/hikikomori of sorts who is too stupid to code so please have patience. This blog is mainly for me to practice code, vent, and maybe post my drawings. Diary This is a test to see if my editing to this code even worked. (8/22/23 9:11 pm) Yo. So ive started back at college so things have been very busy. Nothing in my life is any different, however I think I will be delving back into my work with tulpas. I hope all goes well. (4/14/23 7:11 pm) Hi. It's been a bit. Life sucks as always, a bunch of junk went down a couple weeks ago and my dad kinda disowned me. There is so much I want to say but cant. I dont know what else I can say other then iM doing horrible lol (2/26/23 3:02 pm) Hi. I'm 19! Crazy. Today I feel very drained. Life is so very odd and thats all my brain can seem to get out toay. I have to write an essay for college so- Im gonna do that. (2/9/23 10:51 pm) I wish I felt more okay. Some days I get this wave of hate and sadness and I cant do anything to help it. I just want to be happy. On a bright side, I'm gonna try getting license soon and tommorow im going out with friends. I dont know why I feel so strange. Ive been thinking a lot about Contard syndrome and I think this is how I feel, drained of blood and inhuman. I'm gonna brush my teeth and wash my face now. (2/6/23 1:46 pm) I wonder why I am so strange. I do not act the way a regular person would. It hurts being this way. My birthday is soon, i'll be 19. I still dont have a job, I can't drive, and I am still too scared to leave my house. At the very least I am in college and have plans. I am thinking about how I should make this website more pretty. I want to show people I am an intresting person but this diary seems too much, hell I can't even program this correctly. I still can't figure out how to add pictures and such. It makes me sad. Im still playing lots of video games, I got the new Yomawari game and I hope its just as scary as the others. Sometimes Ill get very empty and sad and these things that bring me joy just sudenly stop. I want to be normal very badly. (1/25/23 9:50 pm) Today in therapy I talked about how I am a horribly scary person. My intrusive thoughts are getting the better of me. I really want to get rid of one of my eyes. It is usless and shows only lies. I do not want it. On a lighter note I suppose, I've been sitting at my desk play Rain World for days. I do my college work online and then play video games, watch South Park and sleep. Rotting away in my bed is the only comfort I have. I hope the year of the rabbit is a good one. (12/23/22) 9:17 pm) Ah. It's almost Christmas for me and although I'm excited, I still feel this pit of emptiness. My doctor mentioned I might have Bipolar Depression and I just want to switch meds to see if they help. I feel sad today and I just want to feel happy again. On a side note, Ive been playing slime rancher again! I also really want to set up the music section of this website so I can post some of my favorite songs. I also want to post my art here eventually. I'm so bad at this stuff, I tried last time for so long to figure out just how to change the background and it never worked haha. (12/13/2022 4:56 pm) My dad is mean. I feel sad and empty. That's it. It hurts to talk and think. (12/12/2022 7:27 pm) My issues with life are growing. I hate the way depression locks you into a head space of being so absorbed in sadness and the anxiety makes you fear all that sadness. I don't know. I wish I got on meds that made me numb and not weird. It was sunny today and it made me angry. I am going to play Okami and go to bed alone and cold. (12/11/2022 7:44 pm) Admittedly, I have no idea how I have been able to work on this when I am so ungodly bad at this stuff. I do not think I can say enough how bad I am at this. Ive been on and off coding for over 3 years and this is all I have to show. I am like this with everything, I am bad at everything I do. This is probably the best place to mention the fact that I am unemployed. Most people on here are depressed right? I fit in, haha. Im on meds that make me numb. My aversion to people has been around since I remember and during lockdown it had grown worse. I never leave my house. I dont need to and I dont really care, it just makes me feel sick being inside so much. I am rotting. Anyways... I am going to go rot in bed. Tommorow is therapy. I might keep trying to figure out more coding stuff if I can. Goodnight. Links put some links here, you can add as many as you want sample link back to my website using this banner: